Our Lil Angel, Gabriel: Is there light at the end of this tunnel?

One of the things about Gabriel is that he is NOT consistent. Whether in his sleeping habits or eating habits. It;s like taking a rollercoaster ride with him every week. One week he's super good, the next he's gone 360degrees the other way. I do not think it's to do with DS, it's just....him being a difficult baby, ever since birth. Even back then, in the hospital he was a light sleeper and had to be put in the auto crib mostly.

Now, at 16 months, you'd think i'd be in lala land every night huh? No way...on good nights i wake at 2am and then maybe 5-6am to feed him (sometimes the boy refuses to drink). On a bad night (which happens like every month for 2 weeks or so), i get up at 10pm, 12am, 3am and then maybe 6am. For the past few months, he'd go to sleep on his own after milk feed at 8pm. Now, he cries n screams when i put him down and i have to rock him to sleep on my chest for about half an hour. Even then, he'd wake about 1.5hrs later.

Lately, i've had to deal with another sudden change. He doesn't want to drink much milk anymore, or eat his solids. He has this bad habit now of spitting...whether it's his milk, solids or even water..sometimes even his saliva. I thought it was teething, but nope, i checked, no new teeth coming out as far as i can see. It's really testing my patience and i can tell you i'm reaching the end of it.

Sometimes i wonder where i went wrong. Did i do anything to make him this way? Sometimes it's so bad that we both cry at night...yah, frazzled...he's already not gaining weight and now this...i've cooked mroe food, like porridge and pasta for him and making it lumpier coz i thought maybe he'd like more chewy foods. Nope...he spits it out too...the only thing that he's been eating consistently past week is his bread..he loves bread..so i have to make sure i have that handy everytime. even his all time fave yogurt is in his spit-list now...

Why...Why...Why....i think he takes joy seeing me like this....Getting Mummy all worked up n frazzled till her eye balls look like it's gonna burst...And you wonder why i don't want another baby?? Go figure..

But again, they say there is a light at the end of every tunnel...so i'm waiting..n waiting...pls pls let me see the light....16 months is long enough time in a tunnel...i need fresh air.

The only thing that remains consistent is his cuteness:)

I always ask him to feed his doll doll milk, he'll take it and then feed himself...

His fave place to be when he crawls...the fridge which i caught him licking a few times...yucks...

After months of screaming when being seated in the stroller, i got him to sit in it again..strapped him in and sat at home till he calmed down and understood that if he wanted to go out, it's either the stroller or nothing..

P/S: gabe understands alot of things i say and ask of him...just that he can't communicate back mostly. But for some things, he'll use his hands to show you