10 Months and Counting

Gabe turns 10 months tomorrow. How fast time flies. Can't believe it's been so long since i gave birth to him. Yet it feels just like i did yesterday. It's been along long 10 months and by that i mean crazy.

I still have not managed to get 7 hours sleep straight. Depressing. Gabe is sleeping poorly past few months, waking up 3-4 times not to drink, rather, just crying and wanting to be put (sing, rock, etc) to sleep. So yes it's been rough. Dr H says alot of babies go through this period and he says it'll get better...uh-huh...i'm still waiting. Should have asked Dr H to make a guarantee on that.

Gabe's neck muscles are definitely strong now and he can do flips all over the floow and bed. But he still can't sit unsupported yet nor can he crawl, so we're aiming for that development milestone once he starts therapy. He's a happy lil boy and we can already see he has a temper. When he's upset he hits his legs on the floor "bang bang bang" and yells. Sigh...and just now i scolded him, he hit his hand on the chair and let out a displeased yell.....man...we're gonna have loads of tantrums..i can just see it.

But when he smiles, it's a different story...it's like sunshine pouring in on a gloomy day, and everything seems to light up...i love that smile...don;t u ever stop smiling Gabe...

At 10 months, nearing 12, i think alot of couples start to talk about having another child....nope..uh-uh...not for me...not anytime soon...after 9 months of a difficult pregnancy, plus another 10 months of sleepless nights and tough feeding...that's 19 months in total (???!!!!)....no way!!! It scares the living daylights & nightlights out of me when i even think about it. How would i manage? I tried to envision it..carrying Gabe with a carrier, baby#2 on stroller, me with my hair all over, face unmade with unsightly pimples, body in desperate need of a total overhaul (even more frequent breakdowns than the Alfa Romeo)...yup..u guessed it right...simply terrifying..horror..

I've learnt a big lesson since Gabe..i'm just not one of those mothers who adapt to motherhood easily and love the breastfeeding, co-sleeping etc...i thought i would take it like fish to water...but no..

So right now, all i want is Gabe..and also, the energy, love and capability i have within me right now is enough only for Gabe. He needs my full attention and love especially with coming surgeries (pls note...plural) and therapies...

So Gabe, tough luck, you're gonna be an only child for now...let's not venture too far into the future yet..i may change my mind few years later :)...And Hubby, the bright side is that there's only me n Gabe to spend your money...

Happy 10 months baby..Mummy loves u so much, you've come a long way...