Lucas says : My Mummy is NOT Paranoid!!!

Things have been a little frustrating at home for the past few weeks. You see, this time round, i had expected motherhood to be quite smooth sailing. I keep thinking well, now i will have a baby who will drink gallons of milk and sleep like a baby...so u imagine my disappointment when nothing, and i mean nothing, went my way.

First, Lucas rejected my breast, then my breast milk, and now to top it all off, he sometimes rejects milk itself. Yes, we have been struggling to get him to drink much. And, he vomits too after feeds. And lately he keeps gagging on the bottle nipple. Wonderful...I have no idea what is wrong and that goes for his doctor as well. I was quite sure he had a case of severe reflux at first and begged the doctor to take a look at him even though she was off duty in the clinic that day. Went there, our friend drank like a good boy and we even did a blood test & X ray on poor Lucas. Nope, nothing wrong there either. And the doctor doesn`t think it`s reflux, rather, from what i hear from other mamma friends, Jap docs do not believe in the wrods REFLUX & COLIC. So, we went home. Lucas didn`t improve and i was getting frustrated. I mean then, why would a perfectly healthy baby NOT want to drink milk and struggle so hard he turns red and sweats?? It doesn`t make sense at all. So, off we went i insisted to do an allergy test to rule out milk allergy...sigh, yup, allergy test came back negative...so now, everyone thinks i`m this loony mother. Great, Thanks Lucas.

At the age of 2months, he should be drinking much more than the measly 50-80ml per feed every 2 hours. SOmetimes he can even manage to go by 3 hours without feeling hungry...or maybe he is super hungry but doesn`t wanna drink??? So yes I`m this paranoid mother worried sick. Look, i went down this awful path with Gabe, i simply cannot go through it again. And Lucas does NOT have a good reason to not want to drink, unlike Gabe who had heart problems PLUS DS.

Everytime i need to feed Lucas, i really feel stressed and burdened, coz if he continues like this, he will surely not put on weight sooner or later.

The Hubby is going for biz trip next week and i think is super worried what tests i will bring Lucas to do when he is not around...hmm, come to think of it, just to play safe perhaps I should consider seeing a mouth specialist to confirm and make sure Lucas` mouth is sucking correctly? Or maybe see a stomach specialst to see if there is too much acid in his tummy causing it to be painful when drinking too much milk? Whaddya think?

Yeah yeah, call me paranoid....whatever...